"Expose yourself to your deepest fear. After that....... you are free"

1. Bag, Primark

2. The abundance of Katherines, for the train journey.

3. Train cart, so I can legally travel.

4. Camera

5. My new glasses, so I don’t get a headache.

6. Some moisturizer, so my hands won't dry out.

7. My mobile phone.

8. Deodorant for when I’m smelly.

9. Some water to keep myself hydrated.

09:00 AM, I’m on my way to Zwolle to spend my day wandering through the city, something I never had the courage to do. The idea was I would use this as an exercise, as an exposure (exposing myself to my fear in order to fight my anxiety), and I did. The nerves that I felt when stepped on the train to make my journey to Zwolle, for a minute I thought it would be too much. But when I arrived there and started to wander the city through my nerves went down and I actually had a fun day, I enjoyed myself.

I went into every shop, walked along the beautiful buildings, sat down to eat when I felt like it and ended my day with ice cream (banana and berries). I barely felt any nerves at all and got all enthusiastic when I saw a book shop having a sale and I couldn’t resist going in and pick up some books, so I did.

Now that I have done this, I feel proud. Proud that I could and it feels good to find out you can more than you think you can. What I would advise you to do is to just try new thing and do more things you love, even if you think you can’t or you feel a terrible lot of nerves and are terrified by the idea, well I was terrified and I managed to do this.

1. Some books that I found in the sale and two books I got because I had planned to buy them.

2. I saw these cute and summary molds for cupcakes, the only ones I had where Christmas themed, and I just had to buy them. (Dille & Kamille)

3. Some tea I found and wanted to try out. (Dille & Kamille)

4. Zwolse ballen, because I can’t leave Zwolle without buying these.

5. Day cream with SPF, I needed some and I choose this one. (Body shop)

6. Some body butter, because it has been just € 1.

7. Just some make-up brushes.

8. A couple of face masks.

9. Eye shadow, I saw these ones back in December, but thought they were too expensive. Now they were half the price and therefore couldn’t leave them there. (Body shop)

10. A tester I received when I was buying things in the body shop.

February favourites

1. A while ago I have bought a couple of old books and since then I have fallen in love with the way they look, the way they feel, the way they smell and because the stories they have been witnessed themselves, they lived through (because they are so old and so many people have owned them). And that’s why my grandmother has given me some of the books she inherited from her father to me. Theirs one children’s book and only to imagine that he would have been watching the pictures, read the stories, is what I love the most.

2. My lips have become dry and chipped and I needed to take care of that. When I tried baby lips it immediately made my lips feel better. I like the way this one smells like cherries, but the smell is not too overpowering.

3. Dove intensive repair. I have not been that nice to my hair, I painted it and at last bleached it (something I still regret doing). My hair became dry, almost straw like. But the moment I first used it, I noticed an immediate change, I had become so much softer and this only got better and better. I will definitely buy this product again.

4. My notebook has become a real pleasure . I have written almost every single thought, idea, quote, book that I want to read and every film I wanted to watch in their. It may not be the prettiest book ever, but I just love to look at all the things I wrote in their these past months. It’s all that I am. Reading this would tell you more about me than living most of your live with me.

5. Even though the weather has not been that cold (at all) and it probably was not needed, I wore this scarf almost every single day. It’s just so soft, warm and amazing. It gives my outfit a bit of color and texture and that’s why it’s worth every penny.

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