Goodbye 2014, Hello 2015

2014 has come to an end, something I not the slightest sad about. For my family and me 2014 has been a year of stress and let-downs. Of course, this doesn’t mean it has been a year of waste. A lot has happened, I’ve finished my therapy, the progress I’ve made with my anxiety has been tremendous considered the difference from me sitting at home too afraid to even walk the dog to where I stand now. But the overall vibe of 2014 hasn’t been great, with my biggest setback the first and only week as a journalist, student, I don’t believe I ever had this big of a panic attack: no sleep, throwing up and many thoughts that haunted my mind. To be honest would this not have happened, I wouldn’t find my course. Something that fits and something I love doing in a group I feel comfortable enough to share the stories I’ve written, receiving feedback and also giving feedback. Which isn’t an easy thing for me.

As for 2015, not much will be needed to make it a better and more positive year. Although I still need to make progress in my anxiety, as I’ve noticed it is still a big thing that sits in the way. There are still many moments I want to start a conversation or when I just want to talk back, but no words will come from my mouth. The only words that in such a situation will come out are yes and no, those aren’t much efficient. It isn’t that my mind goes black, many sentences form in my head but nothing comes out. Another thing that bothers me is that I still get very anxious about the silliest things, that don’t need to be worried about.

                I will make an effort to be more positive and push myself to make progress. For a fresh beginning of a new year we decided to write all the negativity, all the things we do not wish to see back in 2015 on a piece of paper who we will set to fire. So that those things will stay in 2014.

On to my New Year’s Resolutions:

1. Write More!!The new year is going to be a year of writing. Writing for my blog, my course and other bits and pieces I want to write. Write, write, write!!
2. Draw/Paint.I used to draw every day, it was something I loved doing and created some piece in my head. I would love to pick up drawing and painting again in 2015, since I barely do it anymore.
3. Eat less crap!This is something my mom and I already made a start with the last couple of months, we have started to eat less processed food and making our dinner from scratch with fresh ingredients. January we will step up our game and stop eating sugar, of course, this doesn’t mean we will never eat sugar, but only on special occasions such as Christmas and birthdays. But with this as prospect I kind off went overboard with eating candy and sugary treats, the last months. So much that my dentist won’t be happy when he sees my tooth as I’m pretty sure I have a hole in it, because it hurts when I eat.  
4. To challenge myself!!!!So 2015 is going to be a year of challenging myself to do the thing outside my comfort zone. My first step will be to have a small job for only a couple of hours a week, so that I will have a reason to get out of the house, be among other human beings and create a rhythm for myself so I might get more productive.
5. Read more!I love reading, but most of the time I just find other things to do and sometimes it’s just passing time and the perfect opportunity to read. I’m going to set a goal for myself and it will be 21 books in a year, as 21 is the age I will turn in 2015.

These are my five resolutions that I will stick to!

I hope 2015 is going to be a good and positive year for everyone.

Happy 2015