I'm back!

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It’s been a while since I’ve done a post and I’m sorry for that, I really didn’t mean to. But because introduction camp and college were coming closer and closer I got really scared and anxious, which resulted in me escaping to my fantasy world hiding from the reality (it all got a bit too real I guess). The only times I did get out into reality was whenever I needed to do some preparation for college, such as ordering books, a new laptop, etc. But now I’m back and I will try my hardest to get as many posts up as possible.

My introduction camp has been a blast, but having said that, it also has been the biggest and scariest thing I’ve done so far, even harder than I expected it would be. I had expected that as soon as I got in the building and interacted with other human beings the panic, remaining from the very large panic attack I had in the car before entering the building (it had been such a while I had such a panic attack), would be gone. But it didn’t it lasted the first one and a half day, it was crawling just underneath my skin waiting for one last trigger to escape again. This might perhaps be because everything from this introduction was a secret, we knew nothing about where we would sleep or what we would be going to do, but none the less I survived, even more than that. I interacted with others, had a laugh and a very great time this week. I can say I feel very proud of myself and I think I have another victory.

Tomorrow will be another big day as I’m moving out to live with my Grandmother until I find a place of my own. Reason for me to live there is because it is a lot closer and I won’t be traveling as much as I would if I stayed home and therefore I will have more time left for blogging. Another thing that will be happening very soon, Monday the first of September, is my first day of college, which of course I feel nervous for and slightly exited.  
I still have to prove myself I can do this, because I’m still not convinced I can become a journalist in training, I mean I will be having to do a lot of things that are out of my comfort zone (it might not be the most logical step to make for someone with social anxiety), but of course it would be great to expand my comfort zone, to become more comfortable for me and of course it will be a great adventure where I can grow and learn a lot.

An update

 On Wednesday we went to Bremen with the four of us, which was for a long-time and the first this vacation. We really have enjoyed ourselves in this beautiful city with its beautiful and magnificent buildings, small streets, those cute, beautiful and magical streets you sometimes find hiding in big cities. Found an adorable candy shop where you can see them actually make the candy (although unfortunately every time we went past they weren’t), saw a huge lollypop 50cm in diameter, which I of course fancy (but did not buy).

 

 

One thing I was very exited about, perhaps more than I should have been, was going to the lush there. I wanted to go there for so long and wanted to try some of the product out so badly, but there is no lush nearby where I live. In Bremen there is a lush and so I went in and bought some products from there. But besides going to the lush we also went in a few other shops to get supplies (clothing wise and shoe wise) that we needed and of course we played proper tourist taking photographs of all the buildings, ordering drinks and watching all the people pass by.

 

 

The lush products I’ve bought:

Angels on bare skin:
This is the only product I’ve used so far and so I thought I give you a little heads up about what I think of it so far. I love, until now my face feels great afterwards.

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Dragon's egg:

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Phoenix Rising Bath Ballistic:

 

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Sugar Scrub:

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Friday
Friday we went to the beach, although it wasn’t as sunny and warm it was the week before the water was a nice temperature and so it was very doable. Perhaps even more comfortable, my skin is very pale and so I burn very quickly (and I always make sure I put enough sunscreen on). Although I still got a bit burned after all, but imagine how it would have been if the sun was shining fully and with all its heat.

I really loved being at the beach as it was so long ago I have had a proper swim, which is a shame because I love swimming. Everything we had with us was tasting like sand and salt, the sand, we later found everywhere you wouldn’t want it to be, so all the signs of a good day at the beach are here.   

Strange visitor

It’s Sneekweek in Sneek (a small place in Friesland in the Netherlands). It’s when whole Sneek is partying for a week and when sailboats of all kinds are sailing through this city/village. Not that the boats are just cruising through the channels, because they make a spectacular show of it with flying man (not really of course, it’s something they did with water so they could keep the humans in the air) and beautiful fireworks, which we had a first rang view off a balcony. And I can tell you that it was the most beautiful fireworks I have ever seen, it gave me a somewhat magical feeling.

I came there together with my parents, who went for nostalgic reasons, they both grew up here and spent almost every year at this event. I on the other hand went because I was curious and of course the yummy treats (such as oliebollen, suikerbrood bread with sucker), because we spent our nights at my grandmothers as she lives there nearby. Of course also to spend some time with her.

In the morning we had a strange visitor, who was very drunk and a bit rude (using our classes without really asking to pour himself a glass of berenburg cola, a strong alcoholic drink, and smoking in a no-smoke building and bothering elderly). He said he came after a night of partying while losing his friend to visit his grandparents, a few moments later we found out he had no grandparents in this building. Also, he had a very sad story about how his friend left him and he could not get home, because he had no money and he came with his friend's car and he wasn’t living nearby. But when my dad, after a while and when a lot of complaining about this guy, left him out, he left by bicycle (which he said he had not with him). Why he came to this building and how, we are not sure.

Even though we had this strange drunk visitor (which is leaving as with a good story to tell) we had a good weekend where we had lots of fun. Have any of you done anything this weekend you enjoyed?

I bought some things from Primark

I’ve done some shopping in Almere, mostly to get some clothing essentials for my intro camp, such a pajama that fits and more. Not that I catered everything that I need yet, but it’s a start.

Pajama one: Elmo shirt € 8,00, Pants € 3,00, Primark. The pajama that I already owned was three sizes too big and therefore I would not feel comfortable to wear it out on camp. So I needed a new one and I found this one to replace, I love the Elmo shirt (with the Tickle me! Sign on the back) and thought these pants, that were on sale, would be cute to pair with. This means I’m ready for sleeping during camp!

Pajama two: € 9,00, Primark. I do not really have an explanation why, other than I like it and really want it. I already slept in this one, and it’s very comfortable to wear and perfect for the warm summer nights, because It isn’t a thick material or very warm.

Dress: € 3,00, Primark. This dress was on sale and if it wasn’t for my mom I wouldn’t have seen it, which would be a shame, because I really love it. I love the fit on me, over the last year I discovered I like looser, more about me, simply because it suits my body better than the skin tight, which I wore before.

Kimono: € 18,00, Primark. I really like the look of a kimono, so when I came across this one I couldn’t do anything else to buy it and take it with me.

Dress: € 9,95, Zara. I found this dress in the sale in Zara and immediately loved it. It’s so soft and lightweight that I would wear this loads in summer.

Black Jeans: € 29,95, Only. I already planned on buying a more expensive one (€ 60) somewhere else, but when I found this one for 30 euros less, the choice was easy. I think a simple black high waist jeans is a good staple in my closet, something I can build an outfit from.

Socks: € 2,50, Primark. Last year I bought a pack of Christmas socks from Primark and they were very comfortable, so comfortable that I still wear them every now and then, even though it is summertime. So buying a new pair of these socks was not a bad idea, I chose these bear ones this time.

Flower crown: € 3,50, Primark. As you might know, I’m trying to expand my comfort zone clothing wise and because a flower crown is something I wanted to try out for quite some time now, but never had the courage to do so, I thought I might now start to just wear it without too many thoughts. So I bought this one, because they weren’t that expensive and because I would not have an excuse not to try it.